This society has been bathed in some odd sense of stillness, cloaked by different lights and far-off screams, tonight. A time like this, bodes well for the stakes that are to be waged, alongside an ever-longing sense of responsibility waiting to be fully acknowledged. I have no idea what keeps these wanderers so fixated on lanes and lights, lines and sharpening sounds – that keep them bound to this mortal coil. Because there are holes like craters on the paths that I ride, and with every piercing moment of turbulence that comes to past – my mind flashes to a state, a moment, a fracture in some far-off time where it lets go. For being wrapped up in tragedy has been a constant binding of mine, and one of which I have both grown and seen enough of. Upon casting my essence, like slow waves, across these darkened streets, I come to the realization that the darkness that rises before us now, is a darkness much greater than that of the darkest nights of the soul that we have come to know – for the reason I know this is due to the blinding beams of the beckoning moon above washing over the tired eyes and weary minds that are so fixated on a present in vain, and an even more distant future that will never be attained.
And as the feeling of what it’s like to lose washes over me once more, each time feeling more and more like the first-time, I retain the realization that I have seen enough. For the state that exists within my phantom self is like a festering disease in essence, but forged by the very fleeing things that I have grown to love and nurtured by the very things I have come to loathe and hate. But my actions, at least at their prologue, will not be made out of violence and or anger – but instead of the longing that has always remained, and the burning curiosity that has always come and went in waves – of what remains after this all is said and done; after this all has fractured and shattered beyond repair, after the devouring’s and after the evolutions, once all is no longer in reach and all that remains is out of touch entirely.
